Forever Never Liked Me Anyway

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RaddRebel

Published: Feb 21, 2013

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Literature Text

I have so many words I want to say
But the problem is I don't know who I want to say them to
I don't know how to stop this
How to make my stomach ache go away

How do I make myself care enough all the time
How do I fix everything and make you want to stay
Can't you see what this is doing to me
Can't you see that this isn't who I want to be

Should I fall off of this mountain
Should I trip and fly through open air
Plummeting into hell without any cares
How about I go drown in the fountain of life, because it's too late for me

I became a shape shifter inside
I lie with my smiles when you can't tell they're fake
Sometimes I don't even know
I'm so scatter brained and right here, right now, nothing is clear

I can't do this right now, but I'll do it again tomorrow
Don't leave me alone, because that gives me time to think
I just want to walk off, and never look back through windows of the past
I want to look out the one in front, and when I blink everything will be okay at last

I always come back to this day, where the sky is bleak and gray
I always sit down and take a trip through time
Freeze it and wipe off the dirt and grime
Where the hell did happy go?
Where the hell did my smiles and laughs and warmth head off to?

Forever is never going to stay here, forever is already walking off with someone else's hand
Forever never liked me, forever always knew it could never be here to stay
Because forever never had a home to call its own

Watch my image fade away
Watch my smiles go away
Watch me turn my back with death
Watch me take my last few breaths
Watch me wave away forever
Because forever never liked me anyway