Medicated Meltdown

Like a suffocating safety blanket,
pulled over my head and tucked in at the sides.
Thinking, thoughts, blistering thoughts...
They torture and drowned me,
creep up and stab me.

I want you,
I need you,
I call your name, even.

But, I don't want you,
don't want your cold heart,
your cold breath on my neck.

I don't understand,
are they tears or blood?

Are they memories of this life,
or a past life?

What can I do,
with a hollow shell of a body?

A hollow, lifeless mind,
filled with traps and pain?

Panic...panic inside.
Panic outside.
Air..need air, squashed inside.
Dead and suffocating on life.
Lifeless and never ending.
Never needed,
never wanted,
never say never...

In the wind,
the shadow,
the living...
The dead...
The weeping, willowing tree.

Look at the fire,
as it burns bright.
Light the sword up,
ready to burn and sting.
Scar them, leave them to die.
Scar them.
Feel the bite of injustice and repent.

Wipe your nose sniffling child,
don't put your hand in mine.
How dare you presume to touch me,
get out and never look back.
Feel the wrath of our paper gods,
watch the stacks go up in flame.
Paper people,
paper lives,
paper hearts to rip in half like a confiscated note.

Goodbye.